One of the first things I learned growing up near the middle in a large family was to blend in, almost invisable at times, maybe appearing timid to some, while others may have thought I was just being sly. Just as the night gives way to day or the fog to the sunlight, ultimately I gave way to responsibility.
Being responsible comes with its fair share of headaches and heartaches as well. Here I am typing because responsibilities and a headache woke me from sleep, can't hide the call no matter how subtle or strong. Knowing I am not alone gives me comfort, knowing I am forgiven gives me hope, knowing I have purpose gives me reason to Stand Post.
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
Just so you know
You are never far from my thoughts, oh sure we have lots of them on any given day, a million or two miscellaneous thoughts all competing to be in the lead or over power the others, but then along comes something to change the pace of the day, the closing kiss - the touch of your hand on my shoulder - the unforgettable hug we seem to have perfected before we close our eyes to sleep.
Just so you know, that although the millions of things that creep through the caverns of my mind on a daily basis, that even occupy my thoughts as I should be resting, but instead I could not rest, lest Just so you know.
I hear and feel the trouble within my heart as we witness the strife in another couples life, gone are the important matters of their heart, focus given way to less sustaining matters and material things, seemingly most of it squandered, I feel pain for them.
Just so you know, that although the millions of things that creep through the caverns of my mind on a daily basis, that even occupy my thoughts as I should be resting, but instead I could not rest, lest Just so you know.
I hear and feel the trouble within my heart as we witness the strife in another couples life, gone are the important matters of their heart, focus given way to less sustaining matters and material things, seemingly most of it squandered, I feel pain for them.
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
Dad
As defined by Websters, Dad : Father, Father is defined as first person in the trinity.
Walking through the store the other day, I watched as a dad was beseiged by his three children, all trying to gain his attention with one crying louder than the others repeatedly; dad, dad, dad, dad, dadddd, dad, dad, can you hear me, dad....
I sometimes feel what this child felt, what have I done wrong that you won't answer or give me your full attention. Then as before I catch my words in mid air as they escape my lips and draw them back with guilt, knowing who am I to ask for his attention from those who are in desperate flight or peril.
The song " His Eye on the Sparrow" races through my heart;
Why should I feel discouraged, why should the shadows come,
Why should my heart be lonely, and long for heav’n and home,
When Jesus is my portion? My constant Friend is He:
His eye is on the sparrow, and I know He watches me;
Oh how humble we should all be to know we lack nothing.
Walking through the store the other day, I watched as a dad was beseiged by his three children, all trying to gain his attention with one crying louder than the others repeatedly; dad, dad, dad, dad, dadddd, dad, dad, can you hear me, dad....
I sometimes feel what this child felt, what have I done wrong that you won't answer or give me your full attention. Then as before I catch my words in mid air as they escape my lips and draw them back with guilt, knowing who am I to ask for his attention from those who are in desperate flight or peril.
The song " His Eye on the Sparrow" races through my heart;
Why should I feel discouraged, why should the shadows come,
Why should my heart be lonely, and long for heav’n and home,
When Jesus is my portion? My constant Friend is He:
His eye is on the sparrow, and I know He watches me;
Oh how humble we should all be to know we lack nothing.
Sunday, February 13, 2011
Without Understanding
Driving past a slightly frozen pond the other day, I noticed some geese on the water, when something was sensed as a danger they did not hesitate, they all moved together and that was to flee the sensed danger.
In today's world we no not flock together often enough, and with our families before us, most turned to church and christian fellowship, but then came the sixties and the fatal shot was fired at the family. No longer would we conform to the standard of our parents and grandparents, it was time for me and self gratification not about an new sense of freedom as fed to us by satan and his henchman.
Gone were the days of innocence and wonder, gone were the days of trust, and along came corruption and greed. Now not all of this was bad, we did have some groovy music and the message of love everybody was good, not as it was intended, but where there was a new spiritual awakening. Many came to Christ as a result of the sixties, sensing danger they fled to the feet of the king for protection.
Without understanding why, even in the most condescending of times we seek answers from the Great I Am, some however will want immediate answers and when asked with an unclean heart may never hear his response use the opportunity to lead some astray. Do not be mislead by false prophets, said many of times throughout the old and new testaments.
Consider this, next time you go to start your car in the morning consider trying to understand, "Why it should start?" Do we really need to understand that process or do we just trust it to happen, just like thousands of times it has in the past?
Same goes with our faith, even though many have tried to destroy our faith they can not, no amount of Darwinism can do this. Now how would you explain that? Lets try this, "No man can destroy has been created by God". Not talking about physical things, I am talking about spiritual things, like faith. You may wage a battle to explain human accession from apes to the modern man, but how do you explain love and faith?
For those of us who have faced harm in battle or in foreign countries around the globe, we put our trust in SOP's, Standard Operating Procedures and General Orders. This coupled with our training saved many from physical harm. Just as there are countless stories of those in harms way who turned to prayer before engaging the ememy or heading out on their mission.
For me each day spent in the firehouse was another day to lean heavily on my faith and my limited understanding that God had a plan for my life and not just for one moment. Why was I spared harm when standing 10 feet from a loaded fuel with 6,000 gallons of explosive fuel on board and one set of it's rear wheels on fire, all that stood between me and it was a hoseline and water or for that matter any of a hundred times I answered the call and ran to danger while others ran away from it.
So what is to understand? We are all Gods children, some are more obediant than others, but we are all Gods children. Do you consider yourself obediant?
In today's world we no not flock together often enough, and with our families before us, most turned to church and christian fellowship, but then came the sixties and the fatal shot was fired at the family. No longer would we conform to the standard of our parents and grandparents, it was time for me and self gratification not about an new sense of freedom as fed to us by satan and his henchman.
Gone were the days of innocence and wonder, gone were the days of trust, and along came corruption and greed. Now not all of this was bad, we did have some groovy music and the message of love everybody was good, not as it was intended, but where there was a new spiritual awakening. Many came to Christ as a result of the sixties, sensing danger they fled to the feet of the king for protection.
Without understanding why, even in the most condescending of times we seek answers from the Great I Am, some however will want immediate answers and when asked with an unclean heart may never hear his response use the opportunity to lead some astray. Do not be mislead by false prophets, said many of times throughout the old and new testaments.
Consider this, next time you go to start your car in the morning consider trying to understand, "Why it should start?" Do we really need to understand that process or do we just trust it to happen, just like thousands of times it has in the past?
Same goes with our faith, even though many have tried to destroy our faith they can not, no amount of Darwinism can do this. Now how would you explain that? Lets try this, "No man can destroy has been created by God". Not talking about physical things, I am talking about spiritual things, like faith. You may wage a battle to explain human accession from apes to the modern man, but how do you explain love and faith?
For those of us who have faced harm in battle or in foreign countries around the globe, we put our trust in SOP's, Standard Operating Procedures and General Orders. This coupled with our training saved many from physical harm. Just as there are countless stories of those in harms way who turned to prayer before engaging the ememy or heading out on their mission.
For me each day spent in the firehouse was another day to lean heavily on my faith and my limited understanding that God had a plan for my life and not just for one moment. Why was I spared harm when standing 10 feet from a loaded fuel with 6,000 gallons of explosive fuel on board and one set of it's rear wheels on fire, all that stood between me and it was a hoseline and water or for that matter any of a hundred times I answered the call and ran to danger while others ran away from it.
So what is to understand? We are all Gods children, some are more obediant than others, but we are all Gods children. Do you consider yourself obediant?
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