Monday, May 23, 2011

Learning to fail at everything...



During a recent trip to see our grandson graduate, our granddaughter our daughter an her husband knowing we wanted pictures of wild life took us to a state park just north of their town of Eagle River, Alaska. When we got there we were treated to some spectacular views of the Chuigak mountains and the Eagle River, but no eagles or wildlife except one.

At first I was disappointed thinking we failed to locate wildlife in Alaska, this is like going to the zoo and seeing no animals!!! Come on this is ALASKA, right?

However after thinking about it now and looking back over the pictures we did take, we captured moments we haven't shared in quite sometime. Spending time with our grandchildren and our daughter. This is even more rare than catching wildlife on camera.

Sometimes we think of failure in our tasks because we failed to achieve what we wanted to accomplish, however what we really have to remember is who is really calling the shots. God is perfect in his timing and in his wisdom for us. Considering how many times I have had to call out his name in fear of being overrun with something I have screwed up on, the controls are better off in his hands..

The older I become the more I am understanding to fail at everything, success is when I turn to him for everything, I couldn't imagine trying to wake up after 5 hours of sleep to put this on the computer for anyone to read, not even sure I can take credit for opening the orange juice by myself.

We are such control freaks that we couldn't possibly see anyone else in control, right?? Well as for me my friends, I am learning to fail at everything to lean on him for all things, better to perish like a ship on the ocean than wither like grass in the heat of the sun from its own boasting of self reliance.

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

Seductively Appealing

Too much of what we see around us is seductive, being supplied to appeal to the masses, partly to distract us from the beauty of love for one another, but more so to distract us only to its beauty. Like a moth to flame and as in the days of moses beauty was meant to allure us into sins of the flesh.

The appeal of skin is nothing new and has been around since the dawning days of our fathers. As with all sin, the more appealing the more we seem to slide down that slippery slope falling further into sin and further from our Lord, Jesus.

While we normally set our sights on things of this world, new homes, new jobs, new clothes, more investments, etc. the list could go on for miles.

The true demon here is knowing that we are easily distracted, for some it is fatal and last forever into eternity. Knowing right from wrong yet continuing to sin is one of those roads to destruction, unless we detour our course it will surely lead to our doom.

Sometime the best course of action is no action, better to set sail only in the safety of the bay or to merely take baby steps than to press full throttle into oblivion dooming us and those who follow us into disaster.

Repent and be renewed or stay the course and be replused.

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

Gone is the Day

Gone is the day, woe is to me, the opportunites lost

Lost is the chance to surrender to him that cleanses all

Awash in the guilt still, no peace today

Make plans if you will, but by his will it may never come to pass

By his grace we breathe our first and last

Through his will we are able still

Squander not the opportunities !!!

Saturday, April 30, 2011

Sometimes I Cry

Sometimes I cry, inconsolably, not sure why.

Sometimes I feel anger, so much it scares me

Sometimes I worry this will all overtake me.

Most nights I can't sleep because I wrestle with the dreams

Sometimes I wonder how God could ever forgive me for the things I've done

Sometimes the burdens get too heavy

Sometimes I fall down and wonder if I'll ever get back up

Almost always I find myself in a spiritual fight, the enemy is always cruel and cunning.

Almost always I pray myself to sleep....

Sometimes I just cry...