It's All My Fault

Has to be someones right? Someone is always to blame for someone or something or some situation, right? Assigning blame is part of overcoming the problem, part of the healing process, part of gaining peace, right? right?




Did the world become a better place for those that murdered Jesus? Did their lives improve, did they overcome their problems, their vast riches increase? After all didn't the world deserve to be happy once someone was blamed and crucified?



How many times during our week do we feel compelled to assigned blame for something or to someone for our misfortunes or woes, our struggles? Better to know who is right and wrong? We sleep better knowing we gave them a lecture on how miserable their life is because of them messing something up, it was their fault after all and don't begin to use that we are human excuse with me !!! right?



How about we back up and look inwardly at ourselves first, judge the other person after judging ourselves, find fault after admitting our own shortcomings, let us remove the plank from our own eye before we pick at the splinter in the others eye. I know, I can't be serious, after all who lives their life like that anyway.



Well Jesus did, yep not saying anyone of us can come close to him, if it were not for his actions, we are all dead, not just dead but really dead, dead to God, dead to his grace, dead to his love, dead to the coming kingdom, dead to eternal life, dead to it all, fine if you want to follow satan and not God.



Let's try it this way, life on this plant stinks sometimes, it's hard to get through some days, hard to work through complex issues, hard to understand why you have to struggle, easy to love God, easy to try and live a life worthy of him who has forgiven us of all our faults, our shortcomings, our stupidity.



Do you find it easier to curse someone than to love someone? Do you find life so unbearable and your life so difficult you can hardly get through the day? Do you find yourself angry?



• Hatred has its roots starting in Genesis, Cain murdered Abel. He could have chosen to love his brother and be proud of his accomplishments rather than curse him for his own failures or to better yet turn to God to obtain his answers. Sometimes the question of why something is a failure or fails us it's because we are looking the wrong way or angry about our own failures and take it out on someone else.

o There is good and bad anger; Good anger acts then forgives, does not keep score of past wrongs or failures. -- Psa 103:9 and 1 Cor 13:5

• Despair to Praise. Hard to find the words to respond to someone when all seems lost or when anything good does not seem possible. Lets consider King David for the moment. He felt abandoned, completely alone and helpless, ridiculed for his faith, taunted by his enemies, surrounded by those who would kill him, utterly drained and on the verge of death.

o In Psalm 22:1-18 He cries out in his despa, casting himself upon the grace of God he was able to praise God before himself, his family, his country and the world and came back to claim victory for God was with him, just as Job is spared so was he who cast himself before the Lord our God in repentance and faith. There are other examples as well, ranging from Ruth to Daniel to Peter and Paul. Cast your fears and failures before our God for he has concurred all.

Anger and despair are like thieves in the night, stealing happiness and joy, leaving despair and frustration in their wake. Much can be said about this subject and even entire books have been devoted to them. In the end all that should matter is our ultimate relationship with God our father. He knows our heart better than we know it ourselves, he knows when it will be tempted and by whom.



The course of actions we take are all ours, he provides the opportunity to go one way or the other, sometimes easier to swim downstream than upwards against the current where fear and doubt lay in wait to trip us up. Do not be fooled into thinking you are anything less than someone created in his own image, loved dearly by him, you have worth, you have value, you have purpose.



Do not let the sun set on your anger or your dispare, do not fear satan he can't touch you, you belong to God and he hates that. He may control the physical nature of this world, but has nothing on the world yet to come or on God's chosen. Do not let the thought of fault creep into your day, God has already forgiven your sins and shortcomings, God will judge us as we judge others.



If you are finding yourself scratching your head for more information and bible verses or just examining your own life more closely as a result of this blog, it really isn't my fault...

Goodnight Nightingale

Goodnight sweet nightingale, your journey here is done, how tragic the way the end found you.

Your voice once caressed and soothed, your heart beating so loudly.

Although distanced due to pride and stubbornness, you were not the only one who let things come between us.

I held your hand as they made it official, nothing more for them to do. How tragic the circumstances.

Why did we ever let things come so unraveled, so frayed, history and judgement will not be easy for any of us to bear.

Father our creator in heaven, knows the answers, knows the why, knows they who, knows the truth none seemingly want to face. Stupid pride, arrogance.

Goodnight Nightingale....sing at peace with the father in heaven, your day is done here.

Judging

Lord help me to judge myself as you would judge me. Allow me to stand convicted of my sinful ways, shedding them as soiled clothing before thee. Cleanse me of these sins, replenish my soul with a new spirit and purpose.

Allow me to see the errors of my ways, correcting my compass. The journey has many obsticles and danger lurks at every turn. Satan knows no boundries, using anything of this world at his disposal to derail, detain, demoralize and to frustrate.

Allow us Lord to navigate around such chasims filled with problems. Accept us to come before you in your thrown room of love to come before you in intercession. Keep our hearts and minds strong and determined to pass by on such destractions, keeping our focus on you.

Allow us to pray and encourage others to come before you, to become cleansed of their sins, accept you as their savior, know their name is written in a kingdom yet to come, but eternal life is ensured. Allow us to be that beacon a PointMan...

Thank you Lord for the opportunity to rise from my rest to make this post for others who may read it and gain better understand because of it. In your loving son's name, we pray...

Letting Go

I've reached another fork in the road, been following my heart, listening to what I feel is being lead in the right and correct path for the past 10 years, especially the past 4 years. But there is a difference between what we think is right and what is right from another person's point of view.

After putting others before myself for most of my life, I have to change the order of the have and have nots. Instead of setting the example for my family I have been punishing my family along with the sacrifices I thought were right and the good fight.

Not sure where this leads from here, so for the time being and unknown future, the PA PointMan website will be taken down until then I will redirect hits to the main PMIM website. By weeks end I will resign as Outpost Leader and as Director in the MGO ministry as well.

I will be writing letters over the next several days, trying my best to explain my change in direction, I feel this is the road I must take for the time being. I am sorry if this disappoints anyone. I will continue to pray for those in need of prayer, and continue witnessing to those I have a special bond with. God Bless you all.

Jim